Some days I feel just like this

Some days I feel just like this. I imagine that children in fostercare probably feel the same way. This little guy is one of my mom's puppies. You can't see it but, but he has 7 other brothers and sisters waiting for a home as well.
They are so cute and cuddley and I just want to take them all home with me, but I know that with a puppy comes a lot of work and issues. But they are all worth it in the end aren't they? They give so much love and joy.

Last night, I was sitting on the couch at 9:00pm when I realized that I hadn't thought about our adoption process all day. For so many days over the past year, it's been obsessively in my thoughts, so it was a weird realization to think that I hadn't mulled over an aspect of it all day. Daily, I check blogs of others who are waiting to adopt, or have already had their children placed with them. I went through that same routine yesterday, and not even then did I think about our process. I was curious to see what other people were up to. Weird that it didn't lead me to thoughts of children I might have.

I think today that I might send my SW a little e-mail to check on the status of our homestudy report. It has been a month since we finished up our interviews, so she should have had a chance to get started on our paperwork.

Last night we also got most of our travel reservations taken care of for our trip to New York and Boston that's right around the corner. It's strange to think that it's only a week away. I am looking forward to flying with my husband for the first time, and getting away from work for the first time since I started this job last August.

All I have to say is TGIF

MeMe 6/6/2008

Meme 06-06-2008
I am: exhausted
I think: I could try harder at work
I know: I will be seeing The Hulk this weekend
I want: To not be sleepy
I hate: That my puppy isn’t housebroken yet
I miss: My childhood
I fear: losing my mind
I feel: overwhelmed with choices
I hear: air coming through the vents in the ceiling
I smell: my gum
I crave: anything sweet
I search for: inspiration
I regret: not doing things I want to because I’m shy
I love: my husband
I ache: mostly over my entire body
I care: about my family
I always: pray before I go to bed
I am not: skinny
I believe: in miracles
I sing: in the car with all the windows down
I cry: over stupid things
I fight: when things are frustrating
I win: when it doesn’t matter
I lose: when it does matter
I never: eat broccoli
I listen: to music a lot
I can usually be found: in my garden or on my couch
I am scared: of snakes, alligators, so you will never see me move down south
I need: an hour of peace and quiet after work each day
I am happy about: lots of things
I hope: to be a mommy soon

Family

Last weekend My sis and I went to help my Dad, step-mom, and my brothers unpack and get settled into thier new house. Although it was a busy day filled with boxes of stuff searching for a new home, and the newspaper explosion of unpacking, I had a very good time. It's nice to spend time with them because I feel like part of a real family when I'm there.
After my parents divorced when I was young, I lived with my mom and sis. Mom had a crazy lifestyle working nights as a waitress, never having any money to speak of, always wanting for affection and stability. We had so many babysitters, and we spent a lot of time with my grandparents.
When we were alone with my grandparents things were good, but if mom was around too, there always seemed to be tension. It must be why I am anxious all the time now. We saw my dad on the weekends sometimes, and that was stressful too, because at that point I was close to mom and knew how she felt about him.
Now that I am grown and see my parents as adults I understand their personalities and the dynamics of the lives that they live. I love them both, but I sometimes wish I had grown up living with my dad instead of my mom. As I get older and become closer to having kids of my own, I wish that dad and my Duluth family didn't live so far away.

The hubbs and I had a really good memorial weekend! This picture is from Soundset 2008, and that's what we did all day on Sunday. Soundset is a music festival with local and some not so local hip/hop artists. They said that there were about 12,000 people there, and I can definatly believe it. The music was good, and everyone was pretty nice. It did rain a bit, but we didn't get any of the bad stuff like the tornados that they forecasted. I think I might have spotted a funnel cloud at one point though. It's a good thing I don't remember enough from my Meterology class to have been too worried. The day went really fast, but my feet were still screaming by the end of the day. We went home and ordered a pizza and I was in bed by 10:00pm. I'm such a party animal, NOT!

Then, on Monday, I spend most of the day cleaning my stinky carpets. Hubbs asked if I wanted to go see the new Indiana Jones, but I was too tired, so we BBQ'd, and again I was in bed by 10:00pm.

10 strange/unusual things that most people don’t know about me

1. I have 4 brothers and 2 sisters. Most people don’t realize I have 3 brothers who live in Duluth with my dad and step-mom Kathy. Not because I hide them, but they usually only meet the 3 sibs that live in the cities because we see each other often.
2. I have this blog and 2 others.
3. I have psoriatic arthritis and have IV infusions of my medicine every 8 weeks
4. My grandfather was a professional figure skater in the Ice Follies before going into the Coast Guard; I share the name of his skating partner Gretchen.
5. I learned to knit when I was about 7 years old
6. I met my husband when I was 16; he was 15
7. I share the same birthday 1/22 with my cousin Matt, he’s 10 years younger
8. I didn’t have a cavity in my teeth until I turned 25
9. I bought the house I grew up in10. As a kid I had a crush on my second cousin Brett.